so here's the thing you need to know about me.
my high school boyfriend committed suicide.
my college boyfriend broke my heart.
and everyone since then has been well, not so nice.
and somewhere along the line, i changed.

i'm no picnic to be with.
i have this tendency to bottle my emotions,
and it's not so cute when it all boils over.
i build up walls and don't trust so easily.
i pretend like i have this big ego,
but most of the time, i'm pretty self-concious.
i hate needing or wanting anything, anyone.
i think i might have depression
and i definitely still battle with an eating disorder.
i'm flighty and have a hard time making up my mind.
i'm a pain in the ass and i don't really know where i fit in.

so in a nutshell, that's me.
i'm still trying to convince myself that there are good people out there.


so don't freak out if i push you away
or aren't ready for anything you offer to me.


i'm just not used to it.