the past is the past.

so while katie was here visiting me, she ended up talking me into getting a new tattoo (not that it was that difficult to do so, hah.) i have been yearning for a forearm tattoo for the longest time now and figured that now would be the best time to do so. it has been a crazy couple of months and i have learned and grown in ways i could have never imagined. and so to commemorate the breaking free and the breaking down, i knew birds had to be incorporated somehow. i also knew that i wanted to express my shedding of an old life, of things i no longer need and so a feather was also another strong choice.

i remember the exact moment that i found the image that inspired this tattoo. it was right after an intense breakup. on this particular night full of way too much alcohol, tears and bad decisions, i was wrapping up a phone conversation with a close guy friend and went online to get my mind off of my current life situation. naturally i went to one of my favorite blogs (a girl by the name of rachel) and i found the image posted. i immediately saved it, filled with feelings of hope and strength, which at the time, seemed so far off.

and now here i am: tear-free, boyfriend-less, eating disorder recovered, depression managed, cutting recovered. it has been a long journey from point a to point b, but here i am. i've finally made it. i've finally learned to trust in myself, believe in myself and most of all, love myself.

i let myself out.