choice.
[ch ois] noun
an act of selecting or making a decision when faced with two or more possibilities.

my life has been all about choices lately.
trying to make the decision between left or right,
up or down, around or over.

there have been choices defined by the emotional and the mechanical.
things i needed to weigh heavily on and things that were more fly by the moment.
but as i write this particular entry, i can't help but wonder if
almost all of our choices are heavier than they seem to be.

yes, some of our choices are banal and will have no effect on our lives.
but others might set into motion a set of events that define, change and develop us.

a recent job opportunity is one such choice.
i have accepted the promotion to shift supervisor at starbucks.
it will open up the doors to more hours and more money
and logistically, at this time, i feel this is the best move for me.
i am excited to see where this will lead.

and then another decision, of the more emotional nature.

i won't go into specifics, let's just say that choices were made.
things happened. some of them good, some of them bad.
and now it has led me to another choice;
to leave it all behind and move on.

sometimes you make decisions without knowing what is right,
you just take it on faith, blindly hoping that things will pan out.
i may not know all of the answers and maybe i've chosen wrong,
but all of it will lead me to a life i want to live.

because while i may not know everything,
i do know myself and the kind of person i want to be.
and for right now, that's all i need to know.

i hope things are going well for you.
and as always, love, t.